The irresistible Eighth month

The Eighth month irresistible itch

A strange beautiful feeling arousing my mind and soul with anxiety and utter happiness ,getting anxious day by day  along with that emotional pinch and that fluttering movement in the belly makes me more enthusiastic and delighted ,these rhythmic movements going on with any cool music fosters me to feel and enjoy the ensuing motherhood .        

Today I woke up with a power packed kick of the baby, it was like as if the baby doesn't like getting late in the morning. I could actually see the squirming on my bulging belly, the movements that the baby makes, probably she/he wants to peep out and see the world.

The uncomfortable feeling is more turning to anxiety of eagerness to see my little one soon in my arms. 

I have already started imagining the little one, how he/she is going to look and how she is going to react to see me etc.

Does she know me? Will she be comfortable being with me? Can I take care of her?

These questions often keep on troubling me. Being a mother is not a cake walk ofcourse. I take care of myself so that my baby remains safe, this feeling is so special and will always be close to my heart.

This is my eighth month and I have successfully spent seven months waiting for you, darling.

Five months were tough for your mom, baby. I will definitely tell you once you will come. I was not able to eat anything, even was not able to drink water, the doctors say it Obstetric Cholestasis, yeah, I know quite a medical term, I could not walk properly, I was so tired but I managed those five months just to see you infront of me.

I always kept being a mother below everything but the news of “YOU”  being there in me turned the table completely, I started feeling as if I am there just to see you.

That very feeling is so special that these words will fall short of describing that.

Do you see baby, even before coming, u have become so special into our lives.

I will always cherish these moments till the rest of my life.

Yeah, I know I am not the only mother in this world but yes I am the mother of my baby.

 I see those peculiar ultrasound photos and try to see where you are and how you look, try to figure out what you must be doing at that time and trust me as many times I see those photos, everytime you change your cute poses.

I can feel you squirming, moving, kicking and dancing, yeah, I know you love dancing. I check my weight and I am a bit bothered about my weight gain, got those white tigress stripes that mark your upcoming arrival into my life.

I can’t fit into my favourite dresses , can’t walk properly but everything is fine when you tease me by your sudden kicks.

I smile, I giggle, I have mood swings to the top, I know it’s YOU. You made me to eat Cassata at 12 in the midnight, and then made me rush to the bathroom puking out everything but let me tell you, you are very experimental with taste.

I can smell everything cooking in the neighbourhood as well; rice, curry and how I hate onion and garlic , yeah , I know I have become quite dramatic.

I have got sweet tooth since the time you are there with me, you have become chatting buddy, you must be a girl as you love chatting, oh let’s not make it gender specific.

I have planned the names already, sh! not going to tell, you have to wait for this. Even before coming into this world you have already stolen my heart. I know it’s just a beginning and have to cross many miles though I feel as if I have grown those innate traits of a mother.

Doctor says ,by 23^rd January 2015, you will be there in my arms but that’s too long now, can’t wait to see you my baby bee, love you to the moon and backJ

EXISTENCE

Existence
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.....................................By-Aakanksha Tyagi

May be I am not the one
to whom they say human
May be I am not the one
they say courteous

For I am not the one
who eulogise and then criticise,
as what is delightful and what is morose
I go beyond that which they call bliss

bliss to be what I am
to be in my mere ubiquitious existence
to know about me they say I am a rebellion so far
as I dn't go on their conformed way
which they say will go to rack and ruin

I can't be the verity nor the deceit
since I am one.
may be I am a subterfuge in their real world
but yes I am not them.

letting the thoughts flow deeper with a profound curiousity
is what they call slow-witted
and yes I am that
I am that
I am that.
              -Aakanksha Tyagi

THREE PILLARS TO SUCCESS

THREE PILLARS TO SUCCESS

1.BELIEF

SUCCESS...as you hear this word ,you see your self standing on top cherishing your happiness with a dense crowd applauding and cheering for you. And yes, you actually picturised the scenario while going through the above lines.

So , ladies and gentlemen even in this picturisation of yours, you are happy to see people applauding for you, acknowledging your success. In other words more than success recognition matters for you.

Lets take an example-You bought a new branded T-shirt for a long awaited party and you are pretty confident that you look awesome in that T-shirt .What if  somebody says that you r not looking good or nobody say anything and people are appreciating your friend who is also wearing a new T-shirt.

Yes, now you get me right. When people acknowledge your success or witness your success you feel motivated  and happy which shows you everytime need one or the other person to make you feel motivated, yes I say it correct, FEEL motivated.

Feeling motivated has nothing to do with success as it is temporary.

Yes, yes wait a second, self motivation is nothing . Successful people don’t need motivation , they have success in themselves which they bring infront of them and yes if you believe that you will then definitely you will make it.

If your success is out of motivation or inspiration then its temporary.

Believers are AchieversJ

2. CHANGE

Change plays a pivotal role in a successful life. As some holy soul said- If you will do the same actions  you will  get the same results, if you desire to get something different then need to do something different.

Keep on challenging your present status because change in your routine, task can only bring success more near to you.

Not getting the result that you expected for ,doesn’t mean that you failed, instead it means you need to change the process or the way you were working for.

You need to change the meaning of this word Failure in your dictionary .

How many changes Thomas Alva Edison had to make before inventing the bulb?

Approxiamately 99 times. He was indeed a successful person who challenged his experiments and worked on it believing that he was successful.

3. TRUTH

When Copernicus challenged the superstition of common people, he was publically beheaded as he didn’t accept the already prevailing idea of earth.

But the fact or the truth can never be altered or changed, it will always remain the same no matter how much you try to manipulate .

And the truth is that You are very special, important and sublime which can not be changed , you have to believe that. If you don’t than you will always be those common people who follow and fall into the vicious circle of external happiness which probably will give you temporary success but will not be able to make you successful.

I have heard many people asking “Who is your inspiration”? And the answer they expect is somebody’s name. In reality the answer is myself. I compete with myself , try to get a step ahead everytime where I was earlier.

SUCCESS IS INTERNAL NOT EXTERNAL.